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Nathan at 5 months

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You are the one I've been waiting for today
Here comes the sun
It's been baiting morn today

You looked right through me there’s no one else
I sat beside you and became myself today.
Today.

You are the one I’ve been waiting for today.
Here comes the sun
It’s been beating on today

-Joshua Radin : "Today"

Dear Nathan,

As you've reached five months old, you've started to behave less and less like a newborn and more like a little person. It's difficult for me to admit, but this scares me to no end. Nathan, I have no idea what I am doing. No clue. I don't know how to teach you or how to raise you to be a good person.

And I'm really really worried that I'm going to screw it all up. I'm worried that you'll take with you all my problems and hang-ups; that you won't be able to free yourself from my mistakes. Because, Nathan, you look at me with such innocent and trust-filled eyes and the last thing I want is to ruin that.

You have your whole life stretching out in front of you. All I want for you are the best tools you can carry. But I sit next to you with an empty toolbox and no way to fill it. I'm sorry. I love you.

-Dad.