Stuff doesn’t help
Buying stuff doesn't help. It doesn't make you better, happier, or more productive.
But the call to buy stuff is so damn powerful. I'm looking at the new Canon 5D and I want to buy it so bad I can taste it. This is the digital SLR I've been waiting for. This is what I wanted. A body the size of the Elan7 (or there abouts) with a full frame sensor a big, bright viewfinder, and low digital noise.
I know, I just know, that spending $3,300 on a DSLR will be worthless. It won't help my photography, it won't fill that void that I have.
I've become very discouraged with my photography as of late. Two wonderful days this week and I've not gone out and shot anything. These are days I was dreaming of when I was shooting in the 90 deg heat with the Holgaroid (or in the 30 deg cold with the Holgaroid this spring). I feel like I can't produce anything of value. I feel limited by the Stylus Epic I have in my bag because the composistions that come out of it are so crappy. I feel like my Holga work is a joke.
And I feel silly for navel gazing in this post. Even though it is my domain and my blog, I feel like a stereotype.
So, back on topic. Buying stuff doesn't help. Sometimes I try to fill the void with CDs or DVDs or computer hardware, but I always end up back at the same spot: Need more, need better, am not complete without.
Mean while, the rest of the world is living on $2-3 a day; I can't "survive' on a couple hundred a week.
*sigh*
August 24th, 2005 - 12:04
I understand the urge my friend. I fight to keep from buying neato cool stuff for my computer like a specially designed gaming keyboard. Sure my frags might get a little better, but then I’ll just want the next thing like the programmable keyboard with LED buttons that can be modified to show what they have been programmed to do. Hang in there.